Sunday, September 27, 2009

The God-Why-Don't-You-Love-Me Blues

I should really be starting on my holiday homework now...
School starts in like 8 hours, and I've done no homework.
Nada.
Zilch.
At least there's only four subjects tomorrow.
First period Add. effing Math, then a double of Lit., then a double of Math, then a double of Bio.
Hopefully the Raya assembly if tomorrow.
Then I might be able to skip the Math or Lit. test.
Haven't studied for either...
I had a dream during the hols that i bunged the Lit. test, and the only two people left taking Lit. were Melanie and me.
Oh the horror...
According to Haris, the Add. Math work is super hard.
I don't know how I'm gonna get out of that one, but I might have a plan.
I half-wish I was taking PMR back in TTDI.
No homework, just trials.
Then the damned O.W.Ls, then freedom, for a good two months...
Probably would bung that too, but anyway..
Should've have taken up Mum's offer of making me Maggi me.
You know what people?
They have Maggi in New Zealand.
But NZ deserves another post.
*Sigh.
Should really get started on the homework...
Instead, I'm reading blogs.

Dear God,
please give me the strength to not read FML and the perseverance to finish my homework.
Amen.

"Fuck It"
- Chris, Skins

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Again and Again

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me


- I Don't Want To Be, Gavin DeGraw
2 minutes ago....
Me starting to scribe a quote on the board.
Mrs. Usha: Eh Why are you writing like that? Make it straight!
Me: I can't write straight!

FML

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Sunday (Again)


Merde.

Haven't started on any of the sodding homework.

Screw it.
I'm so hungry.
Even though I just stuffed myself.
In a Chinese restaurant,
that Aunty Alice just so happened to be in.
I tried to ignore her but she saw me.
It was like meeting Umbridge in the Three Broomsticks or something.
Just so weird.
Yesterday, I was the only girl at taekwondo.
There was only about 5 of us,
then Seng Fatt came.
I swear, his head grew bigger.
It was not just my glasses.
My thighs freaking hurt because Eshton made us do 360 kicks so fast.
And since there were only 5 of us, there was more reason to rotate faster.
It was all so dizzy-fying.
I owe Sir like RM 100 apparently.
Sod it.
Now I'm going to attempt to do my homework.






















F My Life.




Thursday, September 10, 2009

Time To Come Clean




















I love you. I love you so much, it consumes me. I love you. I want to be right, tell me you love me. Everything we’ve done, all the gossip and the lies and the hurt, will have been for something. … Tell me it was for something.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Remember?


That used to be me.
Insufferable know-it-all.
Teacher's pet.
Person who did homework.
Who only used to get in trouble because of her friends.
The only thing remotely Hermione-ish about me now is my bushy hair.
That kinda sucks.
It actually really sucks to be a faded star.
I haven't done any homework since last Thursday.
I haven't been attending much class either.
Really left behind, and that sucks.
Crap.
Haven't done the bloody D.A.D.A homework.
Ditto Care of Magical Creatures.
Ditto Arithmacy.
And now, instead of completing the homework, I shall read FML and some Twilight bashing websites.
Cause that's how hard core I am.



ItalicWhen the truth fails you, you have no choice but to abandon it.
Agreed, B.